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Name: Matt
Birthday: 1/7/1987
Gender: Male
Interests: God, being an Aggie, BYX (Brothers Under Christ, Gamma chapter), racquetball, Freebirds, etc.
Expertise: I like computers but I don't have time to work on yours so don't ask me.
Occupation: Student
Industry: Engineering
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AIM:  mbrandybuck15
AIM:  kempusmattus87
Member Since:
1/3/2005
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| I have an alarming situation to share with you. I was innocently browsing the Web today, and I stumbled accidentally upon a horrifying website! It's a site that a PIMP has set up to sell his wares, asking for up to $2000 for breeding rights with his "property". I am absolutely appalled that such sites exist, and to help abolish this link and others like it, please email your state representative, congressmen, senators, etc. To view the offensive link, click here.
On the other hand, $2000 seems like a reasonable fee, considering what is really being offered.
Fight for the rights of our furry friends...
Sincerely,
Matt Kemp
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“Bless me
indeed, open wide my horizons to share your name”
What an
amazing thought from an equally amazing song! To think, that being truly
blessed is to be able to fulfill God’s will for our lives. That’s incredible to
me. It’s so hard for me to do though. I feel like I’m just a tiny piece to a
massive puzzle, what good will I do? But at the same time, this line shows me
that we each have a purpose in this life. Open wide my horizons to share Your
name. If each of us tried to fulfill that, imagine what this world would be
like! It would be such a different place that the devil wouldn’t
even recognize it. That’s incredible.
The first
line, Bless me indeed, is what initially caught my attention. To think that we
are truly blessed when we’re fulfilling God’s commands, His will for our lives,
is awesome. I know for myself that I am happiest when I am close to Him. My
life fits together perfectly, I am truly joyous in what happens to me, and I
feel secure knowing that God has the best waiting for me. All I have to do is
follow Him. I encourage you each to share this passion. I think this is the one
thing you should be greedy about, that God would bless your life. But think of
it this way, as I have been trying to describe: When we are blessed by God we
should be totally in tune with His will; we should be so passionate about
following Him that the fact that we are blessed in fact blesses others. In
other words, when God’s grace is in our lives we should be magnifying that
grace to others and showing them how awesome God truly is.
Just some
thoughts, I know I never post on here, but I felt like this was something worth
talking about.
Also,
check out www.invisiblechildren.com.
It’s an amazing website. I haven’t seen the documentary yet, but I want to.
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| This last post is a really long spiritual review of what's going on with me, so if you would, please read it and give me some advice. | | |
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Isa 6:1 |
In the year of King Uzziah's death I saw the Lord sitting on a throne, lofty and exalted, with the train of His robe filling the temple. |
| Isa 6:2 |
Seraphim stood above Him, each having six wings: with two he covered his face, and with two he covered his feet, and with two he flew. |
| Isa 6:3 |
And one called out to another and said, "Holy, Holy, Holy, is the LORD of hosts, The whole earth is full of His glory." |
| Isa 6:4 |
And the foundations of the thresholds trembled at the voice of him who called out, while the temple was filling with smoke. |
| Isa 6:5 |
Then I said, "Woe is me, for I am ruined! Because I am a man of unclean lips, And I live among a people of unclean lips; For my eyes have seen the King, the LORD of hosts." |
| Isa 6:6 |
Then one of the seraphim flew to me with a burning coal in his hand, which he had taken from the altar with tongs. |
| Isa 6:7 |
He touched my mouth {with it} and said, "Behold, this has touched your lips; and your iniquity is taken away and your sin is forgiven." |
| Isa 6:8 |
Then I heard the voice of the Lord, saying, "Whom shall I send, and who will go for Us?" Then I said, "Here am I. Send me!" |
| Isa 6:9 |
He said, "Go, and tell this people: 'Keep on listening, but do not perceive; Keep on looking, but do not understand.' |
| Isa 6:10 |
"Render the hearts of this people insensitive, Their ears dull, And their eyes dim, Otherwise they might see with their eyes, Hear with their ears, Understand with their hearts, And return and be healed." |
| Isa 6:11 |
Then I said, "Lord, how long?" And He answered, "Until cities are devastated {and} without inhabitant, Houses are without people And the land is utterly desolate, |
| Isa 6:12 |
"The LORD has removed men far away, And the forsaken places are many in the midst of the land. |
| Isa 6:13 |
"Yet there will be a tenth portion in it, And it will again be {subject} to burning, Like a terebinth or an oak Whose stump remains when it is felled. The holy seed is its stump." | I read this passage because it is on this application I'm filling out. I'm trying to figure out if I should be a counselor for Impact this summer, and I really feel no guidance either way. I'm confused, and I don't know what God wants for me right now. The last five verses are what stuck out to me the most, verse 9 "Keep on listening, but do not perceive." I really feel that's where I am right now. I haven't been close to God in a while, I don't have quiet times, and I feel trapped in a rut of sin right now. But this counselor thing is something I really want. I think it's going to jump start my faith or something, like force me to be a good Christian again. I just feel that there's no motivation in my life right now. I feel like this right now:
| Jam 1:5 |
But if any of you lacks wisdom, let him ask of God, who gives to all generously and without reproach, and it will be given to him. |
| Jam 1:6 |
But he must ask in faith without any doubting, for the one who doubts is like the surf of the sea, driven and tossed by the wind. |
I feel like I've asked God for wisdom in this matter, and especially in previous decisions and troubles, but I'm so cynical I can't hear what I'm supposed to do. I think i'm sincere when I ask God, and when I pray, but afterwards I am filled with doubt. I guess I've never really learned to be truthful in my prayers. I'm:
| Jam 1:7 |
For that man ought not to expect that he will receive anything from the Lord, |
| Jam 1:8 |
{being} a double-minded man, unstable in all his ways. |
Double minded, like verse 8 says.
I look at people that have their relationship with God in order, and I feel jealous almost. I see something there that I really want, and I don't know how to get it. I believe I'm a Christian. I believe that Jesus Christ, the perfect Son of God, died voluntarily on the cross for the sins of any man that believes in Him. I believe that my sins have been washed away. I believe that no matter how many times I sin, God is going to take me back because he loves me with an unconditional love.
I also believe that for far too long I've taken this for granted, and I have spent the past semester just playing along because it's expected of me. I don't like that, and I want to change it, but I don't know how. I'm trying to get better on my own- get rid of the porn, stop smoking as much, don't curse, love my neighbor, don't lie, all that stuff, and it's actually being better. When I realised I wanted to apply for counselor, I realised that I needed to clean up my act. But so far, it's been entirely on my own, and I know that's not going to last and it's not going to solve my problems. I need God's help, and I need someone there to talk to about my problems.
I feel like I've been in the Christian atmosphere so long that I can say the right words and act the right way, and as long as no one cares to look at me then no one will notice how messed up I am. I'm tired of this. I want to go "soul-searching" or something but I don't know how. When i try to have quiet times with God I wind up falling asleep or reading a book or getting distracted by random things. I don't know how this happens, it just always seems to.
So anyway, if you read this, please pray for me, because I really don't know my direction in life right now, I don't know what God's will is for me, and I'm just utterly confused.
Thanks,
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| I'm really excited about Christmas this year, 'cuz it'll probably be the next time i'm back in abilene. I really miss a lot about good ol' A-Town, a lot of people there too. All my friends from South Side, all those excellent restuarants - Bogies, Rosas, Little Panda, La Popular, Taco Bueno, heck yes... I miss going to the leaf with trey, colter, wes, jacob, chris, whoever. It'll be nice to take a break from all this stress of college. oh ya, and Daniel's getting married, that sly dog... I can't wait for that, it's gonna be exciting. Lucky man. 
aTm's flippin awesome, I love going to college sporting events- they're pretty much the best thing since sliced bread. Just think, I get to go see some of the best athletes in the country playing in the peak of their careers, and it's all really cheap for me as a student! theres no downside... Aggie Womens Soccer is awesome (Big 12 champs, we're in the sweet 16 right now, heck yes), so is basketball, volleyball, of course football (even though we suck this year...again...), and I can't wait for baseball to start, that's gonna be sweet.
I'm hopefully going on the southside ski trip this year Jan2-Jan7 or something like that. but word is that there aren't enough people interested in going...so ya...go sign up cuz i want to go snowboarding.
Last and possibly least, i dunno. I went on a Grab-A-Date last night with BYX. Ya, i definately didn't plan well so I scrambled for a date at the last minute...called every girl in my phonebook...they were all studying and writing papers  , so I went with a friend of a friend that I hadn't ever met before  . She was cool, her name is Callie, so that was fun. It was good though, cuz I faced like 12 rejections or so in a row before finding a date...but dang it i found one, so that's what counts. Better planning next time, i think is the general lesson I'm trying to point out here...but it all worked out so thats good.
ya i gotta study now, this was fun though... | | |
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